Your Voice

You're in the office writing
I'm in the kitchen fixing dinner
I ask if you'd put on some music
And you do
The music begins to play
The volume goes up
I dice the potatoes
As I hear your voice
Along with the singer's
Yeah that's it
That's what I wanted
A huge smile comes
And warms my heart
Everything feels
Right in my world
And I realize that
It really didn't matter
What you played
I just wanted to hear you sing
But I didn't know that
Until I heard your voice

Your voice...

Oh god, how I love the sound of it
Ever since our first time
On the phone four years ago
I remember just how nervous
I felt a few days before I called
Nervous about my southern accent
Nervous about what to talk about
Just nervous in general
I told you about my fears
Your words helped to calm them
You said I had nothing to worry about
You loved southern accents among others
Unable to wait any longer
I called you the very next evening
And was completely captivated
By the sound of your voice
It was strong and sincere
And totally sexy
At times I found myself
Not listening to your words
Because I was so
Lost in the tone of your voice
I didn't care what you said
As long as you kept talking
And we did, we talked for hours
Hell, we talked all night
Into the next morning
Until finally we had to hang up
Because I had to get ready
And go to work
Which I did
Even though I'd had no sleep
I didn't even care
It was Friday and
I was still high from
Spending nine and a half hours
On the phone with you
Then you called me the next night
You'd written this long
Serious letter that you needed
To read to me
I was uncertain of the tone
I heard in your voice
But my fears soon faded
As I listened to your words
You explained why you didn't
Get online and talk to me on Friday
You needed some distance
To get some perspective
You told me what your days were like
And just how deeply I was affecting you
That every time you tried to do something
You'd end up thinking about me
Which I was glad to hear
Because it meant that
I wasn't alone in my attraction
You were right there, too
Later on, you played me some of your
Favorite songs
Then because I couldn't
Hear all the words
You decided to sing them to me
Which totally blew me away
No one had ever done that for me
I loved the sound of your voice
And my body had quite a reaction to it
Then the conversation
Turned serious again
As I talked about what
I was looking for
In a potential partner
I wanted someone who wanted me
Not someone who needed me
Someone who understood
The difference between them
Your immediate response was
I can do that
Which was exactly
What I wanted to hear
And that scared me
I was afraid you were
Too good to be true
Tears filled my eyes
And in a strained voice
I begged you to please be real
Your response was
"Oh I am very real,
And I can prove it to you"
We made plans right
Then and there to meet
I got my Daytimer
And we pick out dates
You decided to come here
Since I had the 8 to 5 job
All you needed was a computer
And you could work from anywhere
Later on that same night
I told you that I loved you
I had been feeling the words
Burn inside my chest to be said
And debated with myself
For quite a while about
Whether to say them or not
Was it too soon?
Would I scare you away?
I never second-guessed what I was feeling
I knew exactly what I was feeling
Still I decided I should wait
But the feeling just wouldn't go away
In fact it only grew in intensity
Until I told you there was
Something that I had to say
I told you that I believe
If you feel it, you should say it
Life is too short not to
You may never get another chance
With that said, I took a breath
And the words got stuck in my throat
Only coming out as a whisper
But they did come out
You weren't surprised at all
And simply said thank you
I was relieved I'd survived
Saying the words
I wasn't disappointed
That you didn't say them
I didn't say them to get you to
I said them because I needed
You to know how I felt

Looking back now
That was such a special night for us
And just as meaningful
From our correspondence
I already knew you had qualities
I could fall in love with
Then hearing your voice
And spending so much time talking
There was nothing else I could do
But to fall in love with you
And your sexy voice

12.08.04