And still she cries

I lie here, my back on the ground
hands behind my head
one knee up, the other one crossed
contemplating how fast
the mood of the evening changed
I stare at the black sky above me
and at the leaves on the tree to my left
in the breeze not all the branches move
only a few gently shake and vibrate
like a woman's body when she cries

it was not my fight
they have known each other
for many years, much longer
than they have known me
this was between them
crying drunks, I think not
but the result of feelings
held in check for much too long
I felt her heart breaking
it hurt me to watch
it hurt me to listen
it hurt me to feel her pain
I could not handle
the depth of her pain
I had to walk away
and for that I am sorry

I put my arms around her
to hold her, to comfort her
but still she cries
I can not help her
I can offer no more than
what I already have
and still she cries

9.18.99

CMT

Author's Notes

A friend of mine had her husband move out around the same time Wolfmoon did, so we really bonded. I went out with her and a close friend of hers one night to a club. At the end of the night as we walked through the parking lot, her friend crashed emotionally and started crying, saying that she was never going to find someone. Well, my friend soon had enough of that little pity party and started telling us about how her marriage broke up, so that the other woman could see that she didn't have it nearly as bad as she thought. My friend started crying and just let out all the emotions that she had been holding in for no telling how long. The intensity of her pain was unbearable. I had to get away from it, I had to get out of the car. I sat down on the curb and I knew that I would write about the night because the words started to come immediately. I felt so helpless. All I could do was hold her. I was totally amazed at the amount of tears that woman cried.