We Pretend

You pretend and I pretend
That everything is fine
We talk of anything
And everything that
Comes to mind
But we both avoid
Talking about the truth
I wait for you to ask
Like you've done
So many times before
But you're either so tired of asking
That you refuse
To ask anymore
Or you're tired of
Listening to my denials
Now you wait for me
To finally come clean
And tell you the truth
Tell you that I'm gay
I imagine that it's you
Who doesn't want
To talk about it
But the truth be told
It's not you, but me
It's me, who can't hurt you
It's me, who has hurt you
It's me who won't talk to you
It's me, who doesn't know how
It's me, who doesn't know what to say
It's not you, it's me, it's me

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