An innocent dance

The night just felt different
I dared to look into your eyes
Scared to death you might see
All the feelings I try to disguise

You always act so cool
And look so tough on the outside
But I've seen the tender
Hearted softness you hide

In many ways we're alike
These feelings for you, I hide
But being with you; here they come
Crashing in on me like the tide

As the waves seduce the sand
And each grain is tossed around
I'm caught in your undertow
Lost in confusion and going down

Have the margaritas gone to my head
And taken control of me
You're dancing so close
You are all I can see

You took my hand, squeezed it tight
As we headed for the dance floor
I grabbed you, just to see you smile
I'd do anything to see it once more

I wondered if that fact you realized
And just what you think of me
As we stare into each other eyes
What's happening, does anyone else see

You turned around, and without thinking
I pulled your body into mine
My heart pounds, taking my breathe away
As I lost myself in this moment in time

Everything was in slow motion
I placed one hand around your waist
And the other, slides slowly down your leg
As our fingers now interlaced

I close my eyes, shake my head
But it's no use, visions of your face
Still dance through my head
I try, but the memory I can't erase

An innocent dance or sex on public display
These feelings for you, can I hide
These feelings I fear, should they
Ever refuse to be denied

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Author's Notes

After that night at the bar, I was in a state of confusion for several weeks. I was attracted to Aloha, and I wanted her, but I couldn't do anything about it. I didn't want to lose my relationship with Wolfmoon or my friendship with Georgia and Aloha because of doing something stupid. To me, the risk of acting on my feelings just wasn't worth the price that everyone would have to pay in the end.

So, I only wrote the poems. Then, after a few weeks of driving myself crazy, I finally talked to Wolfmoon about it. She just held me and let me cry it out. But it was actually many years later before I ever told Aloha or Georgia about my feelings.